Like... can I though?
Just touch my self, sit back, and release in peace
Not wondering if someone is going to walk in
Almost not caring if they do.... almost not caring
Can I relax after a long day at work without all your questions and expectations?
Can I NOT be super happy about every fucking thing, and just be chill, and relate in my own way?
You people love your material shit... your meaningless conversations....and boasting - good for you.
I like my space...I like my new hobby - soaring to new heights as I make sounds I never knew I would or could.
I like reading and learning and exploring and walks and helping people....
And this, this last thing drains me.... it's my job....and it fucking drains me.... but i still give
in my own way I give to all of you, and still...you have no- absolutely NO -fucking clue
....so it's time to fly, not that ;), but stand on my own... so I can fly, yeah that ;) release in peace
To then refill so I can continue to help... refill with silence so I can speak bodly
refill with knowledge so I can speak justly... refill with experiences my own so I can share
While a bit in poor taste to mention, for obvious reasons, nevertheless...
I think Christ knew, stating they won't truly know or accept you in the space you grew up, because they will always see the you they think they knew.
I haven't been her for a while.... not that they ask...and Now, now its ok that they dont
Because I don't attempt to draw love from them...the limited ones
I draw from my faith....and attempt to balance my new flesh hobby with my conscience lol
But when I just can't pray.... or think... or breathe!!!!!! Can I...like Can I JUST....
....and release in peace?